Wake up
from the bed
Feel tired
Feel empty
Looking at
my dark room
messy
dirty
Pull up my
blanket
Not ready
to run the day
closed
curtain
locked door
am feeling
alone
walking to
classes
my brain
stop working
while I
hitting my head
People busy
doing something
working,
learning, make achievements
kept asking
myself
What should
I do?
got nothing
for the answer,
I kept
hitting my head.
harder,
and harder
as I didn’t
found the answer
I want to
stop walking
As I afraid
of people
of friends
people
seems to know who they are
what they
want
what
they’re proud of
I spent my
time at mirror
looked at
my face, body
searching
for ‘my things’
but all I
see are fats, anger, and tears
God, I know
I didn’t found the answer
yet.
but I want
to stop looking
I want to
stop searching
I think I’m
done
I give up
?/!/.
October 17th , 2018